Dear 2013,

2013

You were beautiful.

This past year has taught me so much.

I've graduated from a wonderful school that I've called home 

for 13 years with people I consider family, 

Been accepted to my dream college and scholarship program, 

Fallen in love with academics and education all over again, 

Discovered a passion for writing,

Met people who have truly and permanently changed my life, 

Grown up, 

much too much,

 much too fast, 

Made some of the hardest choices of my life so far, 

Taken countless leaps of faith trusting God's ever abounding safety net to catch me, 

Learned more about myself than I ever could have dreamed, 

And have encountered true passion in it's purest form more times than I could possibly count. 

But most importantly, 

I've grown tremendously in my faith over the last year. 

There's nothing I want more than to be used for the work of His kingdom. 

I hope to look back, 

365 days from now,

Knowing I lived every day seeking after ways I could serve Him. 

I've struggled with allowing anxiety to overtake everything else in my life for a very long time. 

But I'm learning to be still, 

To listen, 

To trust God to take me where my faith is without borders.

As of right now, 

9:36 PM

December 31, 2013, 

I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life. 

I don't know what I should major in, 

Or where God wants to use me. 

I don't know where I'm going, 

Or what exactly what I should be working towards in 2014.

What I do know,

I want more of you God. 

2013, 

you were incredible.

I've been blessed beyond measure. 

But honestly, 

you were about me. 

2014 will be about HIM. 

I'm so thankful for this past year and everyone who has touched it. 

Wishing you and your loved ones every happiness in this new year. 

With all my love, Meg

Dear Tumultuous Waves,

"He gave the sea its boundary 

so the waters would not overstep His command…" 

Proverbs 8:29

Lord God, 

How could I even begin to articulate your majesty?

Father, 

How could I even speak of your 

immense power?

Abba Father God, 

You are the master and creator of this entire,

crazy,

BEAUTIFUL 

cosmos! 

You are so much bigger than we could ever imagine or credit you to be, 

and God you want to use ME,

little me,

 For the work of your kingdom.

Your oceans God are vast beyond measure, 

Eons deep,

They rage and roar, 

Consuming all sound that dares to compete.

They do not concede to our control.

Nothing manmade can compete with the furious thrashing waves.

We are frightful of the depths,

And are wary of the mystery of what lies beneath their breaking crests.

The waves of your oceans God are such an exclamation of your power!

 And God we are fearful of it. 

But you Lord, 

You tell the ocean where to stop.

You have shown the sea its boundary and are God over all of your creation!

The waves of the water fold under your power! 

The water follows the waves of your voice,

And flows in the melody of your mercy.

You are greater than the raging seas, 

Your control God is so present! 

Lord help me remember that you are in control of the the tumultuous waves in my life. 

That I can hear your still small voice LOUDER than the deafening roar of the lies of the enemy,

 and the words of this disgusting, broken, sinful world! 

I can hear your sweet whispers above all of this, 

If only I choose to listen. 

Lord,

I am so small. 

I am weak.

I am helpless.

I am childlike.

I am broken.

I am inadequate.

I am sinful.

I am SELFISH.

But God, through all of that you will be made strong! You will be glorified! 

In my weakness your strength is magnified so far beyond what I can see! 

Through YOUR NAME God, 

I am redeemed.

I am accepted.

I am hopeful.

I am forgiven.

I am usable.

I am WANTED! 

I am clean.

I am made new.

God, you are 

making me NEW! 

Father God, 

I want so desperately 

to be used for the

work of your kingdom! 

I want you to work

 through me Lord God!

Break me Lord,

Fill me Lord to be emptied again! 

I stand in complete awe of your work.

Every day God, how can I do anything BUT PRAISE?

Father thank you for not only allowing me to rest in you through the midst of the the turmoil, 

Through the seemingly untamable and all consuming waves of anxiety, stress, and fear God,

But for allowing me to walk with you God upon the water.

In your name God, 

I can walk where feet fail, 

Above the burdens. 

I can tread upon that fear Lord because it is made into dust in your name! 

Help me keep my eyes on you Father.

Help me keep my eyes above the waves, 

Looking up, 

Trusting you with every single piece of my heart.

Without borders God. 

You limit the turmoil of the waves God, 

But help me not limit what you can do. 

Help me rejoice in the waves God! 

For when my feet fail, 

Your arms are there to carry me, 

And your strength is proved GREATER!

Thank you so much, Abba Father.

With all my love, Meg